A Lifetime

12/6/2021

Breathe in the moment… Breath out… This moment is gone. Find the present and choose to live there.

Breathe in. Breath out.

               Find the moment and hold it close, in cupped hands. Nurture it and it will hold you with peace, love and joy. The past and future cannot survive in the moment. They breathe anxiety and fear and there is none of that here. The moment is full of pure, clean oxygen.

Breathe in. Breath out.

               In the moment I smell my daughter’s hair, smell her strong breath from a restful night’s sleep. I burry myself in her smells and melt in the most intense feelings of love. I feel the weight of her body in my arms, still toasty warm in tight pajamas wrapped around my body. Frozen in a morning embrace.

Breathe in. Breathe out. Feel love, contentment and safety in this moment.

               In the moment I see the wonders of nature around me. The rustling of tree limbs in the breeze of an autumn day. I see a moth flutter to find the perfect resting place. Tan pattern on brown wings flutters for a moment and then remains frozen in time, staring into my soul. Reminding me to breath in.

Breath out.

I sit motionless, holding everything still, wishing this moment will never end. But when antenna twitch against the breeze, the moth moves on, and

Breath in. Breath out.

               In the moment I hear laughter. Ringing through my ears and filling my heart with excitement for life. A reason to put one foot in front of the other. In this moment I am filled with the laughter and joy of my family, and I am surrounded by compassion, gratitude and love. There is so much love in the laughter. The sounds are light and quick. They dance around like candle light, never ceasing until the candle is out. But as quick as a breath blows out the flame, this moment has passed.

Breathe in. Breathe out.

               In the moment I feel the touch of skin to skin. I feel the embrace and I hold firmer. I feel the simple caress of touch and I notice it vibrate through my being.

Breathe in. Breath out.

I relish in this connection. I feel safe and warm and understood, even if the moment is fleeting. I do not long for another because I am in this breath. This connection. I feel warm skin, hot breath, the weight of another against my body. Hand in hand, arms tangled around torsos, cheek to chest. Embrace.

Breathe in. Breath out.

               The moment passes but the sensations linger. Filling the cavity around my heart with a warm presence, reminding me that life has meaning. Reminding me of my purpose.

Breathe in. Breathe out.

Feel the love, the joy, the gratitude, the calm. Hold the feelings as you held the moment. Gathering them close together in your palms and admiring them. Knowing that they are not forever, they are just a moment; but they are you. They are your purpose. They are your light.

Breathe in. Breathe out.

This moment is gone, but there is a lifetime of moments ahead